speak.

Anyway, in case i forget and she screams at me: THANKS ELVIS !!! (see, 3 exclamation marks. tsk.)

Chinese paper today. I thought it was alright (as in, i thought i might pass) until elvis told me that all her friends (whose basically chinese is MUCH better than mine) felt that the paper was tough.

Regardless, i've decided to get the whole whether i'll conditional or not if i do end up so but instead spend time on this last 7 days to cram for all my subjects. Math consultation tomorrow. I hope to get math revision more or less completed by this week. In the meantime, i shall try to finish reading my SLOMAN. I still dont understand LRAC and whatnot.


I feel that usually, when you want to talk to someone about something, it's always the first step that's the hardest. As in, the whole approaching the person and topic bit. Trying to come to a compromise. I think the word's overused. Compromise i mean. We say that whenever we want to feel gracious and dont want to change. I dont know if i ever come off as being hypocritical or not because no matter what others feel, i doubt i am so.

Maybe i'm trying to hide my feelings nowadays. But that's only because not everyone wants to know how you feel. Sometimes just because you get too opininated, hence someone else is hurt. Thus, i'm trying, trying so hard to make myself 'normal'. I dont know if you guys are worth it. Because i really cant see myself there yet. You claim i impose my beliefs, maybe i do. But i wont let go of my principles just because of you guys. You feel i'm being selfish here. I guess i am, but to me, whether you like it or not, God is above all.

He is my one and only judge. Not you. He is the only one i need and want to account to. So no matter what you say about me not being inflexible, weird or whatso, i wont bother, neither will i change myself to be acceptable to you when it's against my morals. Because i know that despite everything, only God will be here for me forever. He will accept me as long as i tried my best to live that righteous life he intended me to.